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this is hard to write, and i'm sorry to everyone i'm hurting in the process, but i've come to a decision. a decision that also hurts me.
i'm not in a good place right now. that's really all i can say about my situation. i'm really not in a good place right now, so this has had me thinking for a while.

i'm gonna leave.

this may seem abrupt and it may be stupid too, but honestly i can't handle it all right now. i need to focus on myself and more important things in my life.
i'm not saying that everyone i love and care for on here aren't important, you're all amazing and i love you so much. we've all been through so much together.

but to put it simply, our adventure ends here.
i need to put down my bags, need to take a rest. i've adventured enough for this part of my life. i think we all need a break.
this is so difficult to do and write and it's so heartbreaking for me because this site and everyone on here means so much to me, it's explainable. but i'm sorry, it needs to be this way.

it's not a short hiatus, i can guarantee that. i'll be gone for a while, a couple of years. i guess this is me basically leaving for good, this time? i don't know, which is why i'm not deleting my account. if everything gets better quicker than i think, then maybe i'll come back. maybe i'll be able to return to this beautiful community of amazing people.

but for now, i guess this is goodbye.

i thank you all for such a beautiful and wonderful time. i've had so many ups and down throughout my life so far, and this site has been a big part of my recovery process, and for that i owe rprepository my life and all of my love.

thank you, i love you, and goodbye.

~ Ashir, a grateful member of the RPRepository community.




thank you.




24th Of March


Basically on hiatus for next few months

Sorry for any inconvenience

Honestly, I’m in a really low place right now.

This dysphoria is kind of ruining my life??

Replies will be very slow ; putting new offers on hold.



I n f o r m a t i o n

❁ N a m e } My trans name is Ashir, so please call me that.
❁ G e n d e r } Untransitioned FTM Transgender (working on it...)
❁ A g e } Classified, but it's somewhere between 13 - 17
❁ R e l a t i o n s h i p S t a t u s } Its kinda complicated. My girlfriend and I kinda went downhill for a bit, and took a couple weeks break, but I'm pretty sure we're officially back together and back to cuddling until we can cuddle no more.
❁ S e x u a l i t y } I'm gaaAAAYYYY~~
❁ S i z e } Very skinny, underweight, quite short.
❁ H a i r } Aburn/Ginger with brown and blonde streaks, it goes down past my shoulders. Also, all natural ^^ I am getting it cut super short tho.
❁ E y e s } Blueish Grey, very dull and honestly boring.
❁ C o m p l e x i o n } Pure pale. I look like a ghost when I'm ill ^^
❁ O r i g i n / H a b i t a t } Scotland ^^, UK, EU.

F a c t s

✿ I have an insane fear of doctors, also known as iatrophobia, and it's pretty petrifying.
✿ I was born as a biological girl, but I am a Female To Male (FTM) Transgender, meaning that I identify as the opposite sex I was born as, making me a male.
✿ I once wrote this confession letter with six paragraphs with a different language for each one for my best friend, and she couldn't figure it out so I just gave her the translation, only to be met with a VERY NICE embrace and her saying she loved me too.
This is the effort I go through to express my crush on people.
✿ I love anime.
✿ I'm a vegetarian.
- Warning: The next few things are issues I would prefer not to come up into conversations. I wish to keep these to myself, but I feel like it's only right if people are wanting to know what is wrong with me from time to time. I am usually very bright and like a ball of sunshine, but everyone has those days, so here are a few issues which might trigger them. -
✿ My parents are split and divorced.
✿ I have depression, anxiety and other shit like that but I can easily hide it ^^
✿ I may suffer from dissociative identity disorder, so be aware.
✿ I am anorexic
✿ I have been in hospital many times from my own doing.
✿ I deal with self harming and many friends that also self harm.

- Okay sensitive stuff over -
✿ I'm actually pretty happy with my life.
✿ I'm gonna be either a graphic designer, a video games designer/tester or a vet when I graduate.
✿ My favourite colors are all pastel colors.
✿ My favourite bands/singers are TØP, Melanie Martinez, P!ATD, FOB, Halsey, Set It Off, Linkin Park, Marina and the Diamonds, Bring me the horizon and Florence and the Machine.
✿ My favourite food is chocolate cake
✿ I have five cats, two at my mums who are Moomin and Patches, and three at my dads who are Aurora, Raul and Lexi ^^
✿ I play the ukulele and apparently I'm pretty good at it ^^

C h a r a c t e r s

I have quite a few kids, and most of them are actually unfinished. Their profiles are pretty bare because I love to give them all unique styles. For example, I set Lovelle's profile out like a computer database because she's a hacker (that took me three hours btw. It's torture I frickin swear). I take my time with their profiles, so even some of my older characters are no where near done. You can easily tell who are my favourites, but here's a list anyway ^^

Finished Characters
|| Tiffany
|| Lovelle
|| Brooklyn
|| Sammy

Currently, most of them are stand-alones, but if you do a role play with them, I will likely shape their backstory to match the roleplay. I will also usually update their relationship status if we do a romance roleplay. I act like they're obviously 'alive', always updating their profiles.

The art on the profiles are usually from the internet, but I'm pretty picky.
I'm actually looking for some people maybe to do some art if they want to for some characters? I'm going to eventually get around to doing my own art, but my drawing tablet is currently broken and in for repairing for the next couple of months and it's driving me pretty crazy that I don't have any custom art.
Just PM me if you'd like to do some art for some characters ^^
I'm mainly looking for some art of:

|| Fawn
|| Joshua
|| Sammy
|| Lacie
|| Chase
|| Erica

F r i e n d s

M y L o v e
Okay, honestly, I have no idea where I would be without you. You are my world, my life, my love. You're the most important thing to me, nothing else compares to how I feel for you. You are incredibly beautiful, insanely talented and I am so in love with you it drives me crazy. I love you so much, my skittles, you're my everything. <3

T h e B r o k e n O n e
Ah. I've got to say, this girl right here is one of the best people I've met over the internet, even though she's a little rusty here and there. I act like the oil, and I pray that she believes that I keep her going as much as I can too. Love you, Penny. You're incredible. <3

T h e I l l O n e
Now this guy right here just usually makes me cry. From the RP responses, to the amazing OOC chats and advice he gives me, he feels like the big brother I wish I had. He's so supportive of me too, and I'm so happy he's sticking by me through whatever he'll I get myself into. Love ya, Noe! You're amazing. <3

T h e A w k w a r d O n e
This boi right here is still insisting he's not remotely gay. Kans is soooo convinced we can't get him to turn even possibly bisexual, even though he knows the amount of gay power we wield. We'll get you eventually! Love ya, pokemon weirdo! <3

T h e D i s t a n t O n e
Now, this girl right here is SO AMAZING, I literally cannot explain it in words. She's honestly like a sibling to me, and I certainly treat and love her like one. She's honestly one of the best things that has ever happened to me, and I'm so happy I've met her online, and I'm so excited to meet her in real life too! Stay gay-loving, Izzy! I love you so much <3

T h e O t h e r O n e
Now this girl right here I know in real life. I've known her for a long, long time, and we even got the point of dating, which was cool. We chilled it down, but I'm so happy it hasn't affected the incredible friendship we have. Nova's amazing, and I love her so much. Stay awesome! <3

T h e H i d d e n O n e
Oh, my god. This YOUNG ADULT right here acts like a TWO YEAR OLD and it makes me so happy XD we're the gay squad, and I cannot express how much I love this guy. As much as his gayness shines, I guess! He's super amazing, and I sadly haven't RPed with him yet. But, I hope to fix that soon, and stay gay, Oak! Love ya, gayo!! <3

T h e B l u n t O n e
This kid right here is like, the smartest yet most blunt person I've ever met in my entire life. He's basically your reality check, and will gladly remind you how much the world is screwed him. He says he's bisexual, but we alllll know he's gay. You can't fight it, Ryker. No matter how weird this kid is, and how much we playfully insult each other, I hate to admit it, but I love you, Rykes! Stay weird, and have fun with a certain someone ;D

T h e M o t h e r l y O n e
This girl is AMAZING!! She only recently joined, but I've heard so much about her, and she's snuck onto her brothers account on here many a times before, and she claims she's adopted me. So that she has. She's amazing, and even though I've barely known her for like, a week, I love you, Avi!! <3

T h e D r e a m i n g O n e
Right, this Rae person right here is AMAZING! Not just with her roleplaying, but I must say, that is incredible! Her personality is so beautiful, and she is honestly one of the most amazing people I've ever met over the internet. Lova ya, Rae! <3

T h e U n d e r s t a n d i n g O n e
Travis gets it, like oh, my god, you would not believe. I can relate to him on so many levels, it's insane, and he has like, the best roleplaying ideas and skills ever too! I cannot wait to RP more, and here's to more amazing rps in the future! I love you, Trav!! <3

T h e S h a d o w e d O n e

T h e R e l a t a b l e O n e

T h e M o o n

T h e S u n


Rave Reviews

  • I did not say enough about him the first time, or use proper pronouns
    This boy right here, is amazing! I am always so excited when I see his replies in my inbox, and I can't help but smile every time I read them, as if I am the character his is speaking to. He is one...
    -- VocaCoreMauUniverse
  • Oh, Ash.. Ash.. ASH WHAT DO I DO WITH YOU CUTE LITTLE BOY- Seriously, though. Ash is literally the miracle that completed my life, and my friendship with many others. Because of him, there's a squad, there's besties, there's relationships, there's rps, EVERYTHING and...
    -- XxCandy-ChanXx

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  • VocaCoreMauUniverse gave Duckling_ kudos!
    "I did not say enough about him the first time, or use proper pronouns
    This boy right here, is amazing! I am always so excited when I see his replies in my inbox, and I can't help but smile every time I read them, as if I am the character his is speaking to. He is one of the fluffiest, gayest, just fantastic people I have met on this site. I can talk to him about anything, and just talking to him in general makes me so unbelievably happy.
    Stay amazing my duck!
    -Travis (Your Gay Baby)"
    (About 5 days and 10 hours ago)
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