ThisCisMe
Idk, just trying to be a better human.
My children are my saviors.
One step at a time.
1/20/23 - I finally decided to choose that I am worth happiness.
Former Rper - Fire Spinner - Wielder of Heart - Social Failure
Slowly learning to love myself again, but it will happen.
"Let the flames consume the pain"
I deal with a few mental shortcomings that cause reaching out to people I don't know and that initial meeting or reconnecting extremely terrifying. Even people that are close to me. It is a daily process trying to overcome it, and most of the time I do fail. But I only mention this because if you see me sitting around all the time without interacting, it isn't because I think I am better in any way. OR that I don't like you or your character and don't want to be a part of your story.. It is just really hard to feel like I am worth people's time despite how greatly I wish I could just be a part of their story. Especially when there are so many amazing writers in the community. There is probably a very good chance that I've even wanted to rp with your character already! You probably think it's something I should just 'overcome' and that's fine. But all I can say is that it is much deeper than that. Social anxiety has plagued me as long as I can remember.
Unfortunately it seems like it is too much for me to overcome for this issue. I am sorry. I tried so hard, got too vulnerable and ended up being hurt for the effort. It really is my fault. I should have been smarter. I should have not been so naïve. Someone like me will never be able to belong to something like this. No matter how hard I try.
Thank you for the memories. I will cherish them.
My children are my saviors.
One step at a time.
1/20/23 - I finally decided to choose that I am worth happiness.
Former Rper - Fire Spinner - Wielder of Heart - Social Failure
Slowly learning to love myself again, but it will happen.
"Let the flames consume the pain"
I deal with a few mental shortcomings that cause reaching out to people I don't know and that initial meeting or reconnecting extremely terrifying. Even people that are close to me. It is a daily process trying to overcome it, and most of the time I do fail. But I only mention this because if you see me sitting around all the time without interacting, it isn't because I think I am better in any way. OR that I don't like you or your character and don't want to be a part of your story.. It is just really hard to feel like I am worth people's time despite how greatly I wish I could just be a part of their story. Especially when there are so many amazing writers in the community. There is probably a very good chance that I've even wanted to rp with your character already! You probably think it's something I should just 'overcome' and that's fine. But all I can say is that it is much deeper than that. Social anxiety has plagued me as long as I can remember.
Unfortunately it seems like it is too much for me to overcome for this issue. I am sorry. I tried so hard, got too vulnerable and ended up being hurt for the effort. It really is my fault. I should have been smarter. I should have not been so naïve. Someone like me will never be able to belong to something like this. No matter how hard I try.
Thank you for the memories. I will cherish them.
Never forgotten. I miss your light every day.
..and I'm so sorry I failed you..
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