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HEAVENLYTEMPTATIONS
❝ she walked into the room looking like a star ,
hair piled high on her head , oversized sunglasses hiding most of her face ,
with a long sheer dress barely covering her feet ,
which were perched atop gemstone-encrusted , glittering pumps .
she said “that’s hot” as if it were her catchphrase ,
and she was the perfect embodiment of Hollywood style . ❞
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So you say you want a deathbed scene, the knowledge that comes before knowledge, and you want it dirty. And no one can ever figure out what you want, and you won’t tell them, and you realize the one person in the world who loves you isn’t the one you thought it would be, and you don’t trust him to love you in a right way. You thought if you handed over your body he’d do something interesting. Perhaps it isn’t love when you say he is what you love the most ─ he's the knife you turn inside yourself, this is love.
The cage is open. You can walk out anytime you want. Why are you still here? Alexis Ortega has been searching for acceptance and fulfillment all her life. From an early age, she knew she was something special ─ or at least determined to do something special, something intangible. She was confident; competed in beauty pageants and enjoyed the spotlight, even when it was dark and twisted and filthy. She wanted to be adored and so, she quickly learned how to achieve admiration. She learned how to please; how to make men feel confident and powerful in order to get what she wanted. Her sexuality being a convincing and lethal weapon that she demonstrates with a bulletproof armor of self-esteem. Always sure of herself, she lets her emotions rule. She has no vocal filter and is brutally honest and straight forward; a captivating extrovert with both enemies and lovers. There is, however, a softness that peeks through the surface and reveals an inner child. Behind her fashionable exterior hides an immaturity. Alexis likes to play games, to be stimulated as she fears loneliness and longs for eternal love and affirmation. Her current relationship being a perfect example. A sweet love would never be enough. Desperate to feel alive, she thrives in chaos even though it makes her sick to her stomach. He brings out the worst in her, and she lets him. Loving the jealous mindgames, but terrified of losing him all at once. Clinging to the love that fulfills her, a love that has her back and would kill for her no matter what. The darkness and the pain, she likes the comfort of the cage; to let him inflict the bruises just so he can heal her again ─ forever unable to give him up.
