Honesty

Likeness
My studies on becoming a better Slave to an husband lady is exhausting every morning my schedule is to address my uncle estate,"Balance the books" they say... "It'll be fun they say." Indeed it is, I enjoy any thing when it comes to counting. Next on my becoming a lady routine is the harpsichord in the foyer, playing without any mistakes....I make a lot of mistakes and my instructor is horrible. Then there's that knitting class, I feel my blood boiling with every loop of the yarn... what is this? Goat fur?!..

As my mother would say. "If you can’t do anything about it, don’t worry about it.”

Which the thought came only to mind in the painting class. The instructor and I.. such a small mundane class.. class doesn't seem to be the right word for this.. either way the instructor did a As they finished and granted me with the sketch.. I studied it... the light in the eyes caught me off guard, because there was indeed light in them.. a sign that life was still meant to be had and enjoyed. Then the color on my cheeks, I wore no makeup that day and for there to be signs of color.. Was I blushing while the artist drew me? Why as I blushing? Did I feel embarrassed that they picked not to draw roses today but me? Yet, I wondered was my nose really that broad? I look in the mirror everyday and I don't see what this artist seen. Then mothers words came rushing back to me.. Darling, butterfly if you can't do anything about it, Don't worry about it." Next time I sat in the class I will address the nose.

Captain Baudhuin I've spent more time with this man then I have my own sister in law. He was dressed to clearly impress with his Blue, White and Gold attire. The Chevalier sur la mer is being upgraded and maned for the voyage. I did notice the name of the ship being re-written with gold ink by a boy on a rope-swing. I came to ask him for some aid and he promised to look into my request. We've spoke on other things and more promises were made. I just hope he can keep them.

He told me his father is sick, I do hope for a speedy recovery, maybe that's why he's preparing the ship for a voyage. He asked about owning a manor on my Uncle Ariston land and as I was balancing the books that morning I did notice he could use the income. Maybe, his parents can come here .. it would be nice to see other elder people other than my grumpy uncle. I haven't heard word back from my own parents and that's why I feel the need to see older people... I did however promise to spend more time with him, as long as he's sober.


He asked me to take a voyage with him , for support only. He's visiting his family...