Ashtor3th

• Gender: Transexual Woman
• Birthday: April 16

I hide behind an overly robotic shell when I am in a place I don't feel safe. I don't mean any offense by this, it's just that, in my life, I have not met many people that I could trust. Even without this, I am extremely shy and afraid to talk to people, even my friends; I'm afraid I'm bothering them (and for good reason as I will obsessively type even when I am in pain). I did not live a very happy life. I have been assaulted, and often nearly killed on several occasions, so I am often doubly terrified to approach or speak to people, and will put on a mask of rudeness to project some false sense of strength about me; This is fake. Roleplaying has often been my only escape from all this. It is why it seems to be so important to me, from an outside perspective; Obsessively so. Most of my content is depressing and macabre, and perhaps skirts the borders of established rules of conduct in most communities. It's not for any desire to cause harm to anyone, but many people take offense nonetheless. I have... what I can only describe as an obsessive need to write; It's all I can, these days. I share these stories. I have to...

I am not well. I suppose many people might find this demeaning to handicapped people, but... I wish I was someone else, often. I was diagnosed with autism as a child, and I have severe seizures, that have caused scarring on my hippocampus and often cause me to have severe reaction and short-term memory problems. Coupled with medication for severe arthritis, and constantly being underweight, my mind is not always in a balanced state, and it can cause me to have explosive fits; They are for no reason, I know this now, but not when it happens. I've only now come across friends who can deal with this. If you don't want anything to do with me, I don't blame you; You're not obligated to bear any of the weight of my burdens, and I respect that. I was not built to last. I am not very strong in any fashion. I am very sick, all the time, and thus have nowhere to go, so I made a roleplaying server on Discord.

I am completely unhinged, and this will result in mildly upsetting arguments, on your end of things, but for some reason, when all is said and done, I'm the one beating myself up the most over it. It's not that bad, trust me. And if it is, you have my permission to REMIND ME THAT I SHOULD SHUT UP. That said, if you want to RP, you know where to find me. Or I'll find you.

The Baels of Hell

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