What do you do when you have lost the passion that drives you to create and participate in RPs?
I feel like over the recent months I have slowly lost almost all my drive to RP with people. Some of this was caused by me hurting a friend because I was hurting. Some of this was because a lot of things I had become invested in fell apart due to various circumstances beyond my control or beyond the control of others. Some of this is because some people I knew and cared about disappeared without any notes or indication of things going wrong.
I guess part of me is fearful of this repeating again and the hurt and disappointment that follows. Another part is nihilistic with apathy, like why even try if it'll happen all over again in a few days/weeks/months. And the biggest part is this, do I still have anything to offer from within myself? I spend so much time helping out others but never get anything of my own done or even started any more.
The people I'd like more than anything to do things always seem too busy, or are off site in places I am far too unfamiliar with to feel comfortable with, or just simply aren't around. And I hate bothering people, especially the ones I think the world of.
I'm tired, sad, disappointed, apathetic, and all around worried.
What should I do?
I feel like over the recent months I have slowly lost almost all my drive to RP with people. Some of this was caused by me hurting a friend because I was hurting. Some of this was because a lot of things I had become invested in fell apart due to various circumstances beyond my control or beyond the control of others. Some of this is because some people I knew and cared about disappeared without any notes or indication of things going wrong.
I guess part of me is fearful of this repeating again and the hurt and disappointment that follows. Another part is nihilistic with apathy, like why even try if it'll happen all over again in a few days/weeks/months. And the biggest part is this, do I still have anything to offer from within myself? I spend so much time helping out others but never get anything of my own done or even started any more.
The people I'd like more than anything to do things always seem too busy, or are off site in places I am far too unfamiliar with to feel comfortable with, or just simply aren't around. And I hate bothering people, especially the ones I think the world of.
I'm tired, sad, disappointed, apathetic, and all around worried.
What should I do?
Reading your post made me think of how I feel when I am in one of the depressive states (I have bipolar disorder and have horrible mood swings.) By this, I mean, I often feel like there is no point in even trying, no point in (in my case) "getting better". But there is always a reason to keep going, there is always a reason to push through.
Have you tried to explain to this person that you were hurting when you hurt them? Even if you just try, it will mean something, maybe not to them, but to you.
Maybe taking time away from RPR will help you feel better. It might not, I don't know. I'm just speaking from personal experience here.
Feel free to message me if you want to talk some more. I believe we're friends on here already, if that matters.
Have you tried to explain to this person that you were hurting when you hurt them? Even if you just try, it will mean something, maybe not to them, but to you.
Maybe taking time away from RPR will help you feel better. It might not, I don't know. I'm just speaking from personal experience here.
Feel free to message me if you want to talk some more. I believe we're friends on here already, if that matters.
I have since apologized to this person, but like most time and circumstances - things will never go back to being the same. Things will not improve beyond what had once been. The hardest part has been trying to forgive myself - but it is hard to do so when you're me and doing such things again will always be a risk.
I have taken time away from the site, I'm afraid that I've been gone for too long. I see that I have missed out on a lot in some places and not much has happened in others. I'm not sure where I fit in anymore or what I should and need to do to get back there.
Have I outgrown RPR? Has it outgrown and moved on from me? How many bridges have I burned or left to rot? Am I still fit to be here?
What do I want and need? Forgiveness? Validation? Understanding? Gratification? Patience? Courage?
I have taken time away from the site, I'm afraid that I've been gone for too long. I see that I have missed out on a lot in some places and not much has happened in others. I'm not sure where I fit in anymore or what I should and need to do to get back there.
Have I outgrown RPR? Has it outgrown and moved on from me? How many bridges have I burned or left to rot? Am I still fit to be here?
What do I want and need? Forgiveness? Validation? Understanding? Gratification? Patience? Courage?
I think you need all of those things, but from yourself. And that isn't meant as a slam or to sound rude in any sort of way.
If you truly feel like you have outgrown RPR, maybe it's time to step back for a longer period of time? I don't think RPR could ever outgrow the people that make the community what it is.
But! I feel like you add so much to the community, even though I haven't had the chance to RP with you yet. There is still so much that you have to offer us.
If you truly feel like you have outgrown RPR, maybe it's time to step back for a longer period of time? I don't think RPR could ever outgrow the people that make the community what it is.
But! I feel like you add so much to the community, even though I haven't had the chance to RP with you yet. There is still so much that you have to offer us.
Perhaps you should read/write some stories. Perhaps enjoying other written work will spark a fire for rp again out of a desire to tell your own story with someone else. Another idea is maybe go for a rp idea or plot you have always wanted to do, but never actually did.
Finally maybe you should talk to a trusted friend about all of this. Maybe getting everything off your chest with someone you trust will help.
Finally maybe you should talk to a trusted friend about all of this. Maybe getting everything off your chest with someone you trust will help.
I think I will leave the site until I can find my passion again. I don't want to do this but I need to gain some clarity and direction again. I wish I had more I could give and people here to give to. But I need to make something big, something that holds meaning and weight. And I'm not sure if this is right place for that - right now anyway.
I'm sorry to all those I'll be letting down. But I just can't RP with you all anymore. I hope your endeavors are fruitful.
I'll be taking my leave today. If you wish to still get in contact with me I can be reached on Skype and Discord.
Good bye.
I'm sorry to all those I'll be letting down. But I just can't RP with you all anymore. I hope your endeavors are fruitful.
I'll be taking my leave today. If you wish to still get in contact with me I can be reached on Skype and Discord.
Good bye.
We love you, man. Take the time you need, but always remember that whether you're actively RPing or not, you're a brilliant member of the community. I love seeing everything you post, and it pains me to see you going through this!