For the past five minutes I've been sitting on my bed crying, tears rolling down my face and everything. It's five thirty in the morning and I don't have to be up for another two and a half hours, but here I am typing this and not wanting to go to sleep. In fact, I just started welling up again thinking back on the dream which is to blame for this.
It started out fine but then took a turn, one of the peopIe I love the most, my dad, calling me names, being aggressive towards me, telling me how worthless I am and all that jazz in front of tons of people on my graduation day after getting wasted. Then it carries onto the next day when he should be sober, not having drank a drop, in front of family and then having them turn on me as well one by one. I then woke up, tears rolling down my nose and onto my pillowcase, trying to be quiet to not wake my sister (which failed when I blew my nose). It really sucks and actually did truly hurt me, especially considering that he'd never done those things to me (well except for name calling but it's a shared thing, one that comes with joking around) and the fact that he's the parent that actually wanted to fight for us makes this all the worse. And even more so when some of those things confirm some feelings I have about myself.
This isn't something you need to respond to or quite frankly even read. I just needed to get this off of my chest and out in the open, to tell someone other than my family and I didn't want to drop this on one particular person.
I feel better now, may try sleeping again though it scares me that this will happen twice, but I know it's a dream and doesn't mean anything
As said before, this is a vent post and does not need to be responded to.
It started out fine but then took a turn, one of the peopIe I love the most, my dad, calling me names, being aggressive towards me, telling me how worthless I am and all that jazz in front of tons of people on my graduation day after getting wasted. Then it carries onto the next day when he should be sober, not having drank a drop, in front of family and then having them turn on me as well one by one. I then woke up, tears rolling down my nose and onto my pillowcase, trying to be quiet to not wake my sister (which failed when I blew my nose). It really sucks and actually did truly hurt me, especially considering that he'd never done those things to me (well except for name calling but it's a shared thing, one that comes with joking around) and the fact that he's the parent that actually wanted to fight for us makes this all the worse. And even more so when some of those things confirm some feelings I have about myself.
This isn't something you need to respond to or quite frankly even read. I just needed to get this off of my chest and out in the open, to tell someone other than my family and I didn't want to drop this on one particular person.
I feel better now, may try sleeping again though it scares me that this will happen twice, but I know it's a dream and doesn't mean anything
As said before, this is a vent post and does not need to be responded to.
I know you said no one needed to respond, but I really felt compelled to do so by the intensity of your dream and having similar ones in the past myself.
I like to sometimes do a little bit of dream reading, but in no way shape or form is it all 100% accurate or even generally completely true. However, dream reading is something that might help put some of your personal life into perspective. It could be totally off and wrong, so don't assume that maybe your dream means worse things if it doesn't match what I think your dream might mean.
Dads and father figures in dreams usually represent our presence of authority, or a source of authority. They're a pillar and a very important one in most cases. I think your dad is being used in your subconscious mind to represent your personal strengths, authority, and determination. However, the voice of your dad and the words he is saying are your inner most thoughts about yourself. Things that you struggle with battling on a regular basis and having the pillar of your own self or authority of yourself screaming these at you and then further dragging your peers and family in to believe it as well is your like an anxiety or insecurity that could be something you're fearing in your subconscious thoughts. It sounds like you might be worried that everyone around you, even your father who you love and clearly feel loved by, might think those same thoughts about you. However, please try to remember that your dreams words to you are not any way shape or form a good representation of how someone feels about you or thinks about you.
We usually have very vivid dreams when under a lot of stress too, so if you've been experiencing a high level of stress lately, this could be a manifestation with your dream concerning your graduation which is representation of a very big event that's coming to an end. The point of your success and moving your life forward. So, I think your dream is trying to tell you that you are very stressed and dealing with a lot of personal struggle on what you think of yourself.
You can overcome this! It's totally okay to cry, and you should always feel safe to cry and feel pain about something that scared you or put your fears and worries into the forefront of your mind. That's totally okay and you shouldn't try and hide it. Crying is a really good way of releasing pent up energy, stress, and just getting a chance to relax. I know that I used to hide my crying from everyone because I was afraid I was being a huge burden on anyone who saw me crying. I even got yelled at quite a bit for crying while I was growing up, but I learned that crying is totally healthy and a great thing to do. So, let yourself cry for feeling scared and being shown a really vivid bad dream that made you feel hurt. Just remember that dreams are not a proper reflection of reality and often times just shove our fears quite rudely into our mind.
Take a deep breath and try to get a little more sleep if you can. Also, blowing your nose is especially good when crying. >>
I like to sometimes do a little bit of dream reading, but in no way shape or form is it all 100% accurate or even generally completely true. However, dream reading is something that might help put some of your personal life into perspective. It could be totally off and wrong, so don't assume that maybe your dream means worse things if it doesn't match what I think your dream might mean.
Dads and father figures in dreams usually represent our presence of authority, or a source of authority. They're a pillar and a very important one in most cases. I think your dad is being used in your subconscious mind to represent your personal strengths, authority, and determination. However, the voice of your dad and the words he is saying are your inner most thoughts about yourself. Things that you struggle with battling on a regular basis and having the pillar of your own self or authority of yourself screaming these at you and then further dragging your peers and family in to believe it as well is your like an anxiety or insecurity that could be something you're fearing in your subconscious thoughts. It sounds like you might be worried that everyone around you, even your father who you love and clearly feel loved by, might think those same thoughts about you. However, please try to remember that your dreams words to you are not any way shape or form a good representation of how someone feels about you or thinks about you.
We usually have very vivid dreams when under a lot of stress too, so if you've been experiencing a high level of stress lately, this could be a manifestation with your dream concerning your graduation which is representation of a very big event that's coming to an end. The point of your success and moving your life forward. So, I think your dream is trying to tell you that you are very stressed and dealing with a lot of personal struggle on what you think of yourself.
You can overcome this! It's totally okay to cry, and you should always feel safe to cry and feel pain about something that scared you or put your fears and worries into the forefront of your mind. That's totally okay and you shouldn't try and hide it. Crying is a really good way of releasing pent up energy, stress, and just getting a chance to relax. I know that I used to hide my crying from everyone because I was afraid I was being a huge burden on anyone who saw me crying. I even got yelled at quite a bit for crying while I was growing up, but I learned that crying is totally healthy and a great thing to do. So, let yourself cry for feeling scared and being shown a really vivid bad dream that made you feel hurt. Just remember that dreams are not a proper reflection of reality and often times just shove our fears quite rudely into our mind.
Take a deep breath and try to get a little more sleep if you can. Also, blowing your nose is especially good when crying. >>
That happened to me my depression has been flaring up for no reason nothing triggers it’s and it’s so hard to deal with
I hope you can get through this if you want to talk send me a message and I’ll try to help
I hope you can get through this if you want to talk send me a message and I’ll try to help
(((((hugs)))))
hope you feel better
hope you feel better
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