because everybody is always leaning on me, depending on me for everything. even stuff they can do themselves. but do i have anybody to lean on in RL? no. i don't. that's one reason i need to RP so much: stress relief.
because life has been harsh for someone like me. i'm the kind of person that is hardly taken seriously, is often underestimated and has a better chance of having some unskilled job for the rest of his life despite having gone to school for 15+ years. because i'm unlucky in RL and because i'm a kind of loser who'll always be alone in RL. that's another reason i need to RP so much: comfort.
yet too many others over the years have been dishonest, closed-minded, accusatory, callous, negligent, unreliable and the list goes on. i've been RPing for 20 or so years yet i have nobody, these days. i've been bullied off Discord servers, i've been turned down by every person i've ever asked, i've been harassed and mocked for my RP preferences. sure, i could compromise; with compromising people, that is. and people have their own preferences that make them as strict as others would claim i am.
so why do i even bother trying, knowing i'll just keep getting ignored and rejected? i don't know. but i do know that anything i do or say won't make a difference because all it's up to chance.
because life has been harsh for someone like me. i'm the kind of person that is hardly taken seriously, is often underestimated and has a better chance of having some unskilled job for the rest of his life despite having gone to school for 15+ years. because i'm unlucky in RL and because i'm a kind of loser who'll always be alone in RL. that's another reason i need to RP so much: comfort.
yet too many others over the years have been dishonest, closed-minded, accusatory, callous, negligent, unreliable and the list goes on. i've been RPing for 20 or so years yet i have nobody, these days. i've been bullied off Discord servers, i've been turned down by every person i've ever asked, i've been harassed and mocked for my RP preferences. sure, i could compromise; with compromising people, that is. and people have their own preferences that make them as strict as others would claim i am.
so why do i even bother trying, knowing i'll just keep getting ignored and rejected? i don't know. but i do know that anything i do or say won't make a difference because all it's up to chance.
People, I talked with newtgraything through private messages.
I do understand what he means. I assure you, his messages in private were very sincere.
I don't divulge here what was said, but this player is just looking to write with someone.
Maybe few will say that he's a bit clumsy with the way he expresses himself, or maybe a bit too much forwarding.
He isn't...
In the beginning when I arrived at RPR, I felt like an alien too, that weird one with that doe... So I understand his feelings.
Newtgraything,
I respect totally your 'coming out' (if I may use that term), and it shows your vulnerability. Thank you for being sincere.
As I said to you, and as you mention here, yes, I'm not much giving into compromising with my Lizbeth, I might be as stubborn as you with that (a real mule head). And yes it's a lot of chance to stumble on the right partner. I might consider myself as extremely lucky with that. So there ARE compromising people, that DON'T judge on kinks and preferences.
I simply ask you not to give up, nobody is purposely ignoring you (if someone does, who cares...) and unfortunately for you, patience is key word, sorry.
I don't Discord, I'm too old for that, it's way too fast paced for me, so I can't tell about my experience there (it's somewhere between void and zero). I only know that I feel very comfortable here on RPR, well yes, of course not everybody likes me, I'm conscious of that. So, maybe, if you have the necessary patience, there will be someone that likes your RP proposition and will write with you.
Wish you strength
I do understand what he means. I assure you, his messages in private were very sincere.
I don't divulge here what was said, but this player is just looking to write with someone.
Maybe few will say that he's a bit clumsy with the way he expresses himself, or maybe a bit too much forwarding.
He isn't...
In the beginning when I arrived at RPR, I felt like an alien too, that weird one with that doe... So I understand his feelings.
Newtgraything,
I respect totally your 'coming out' (if I may use that term), and it shows your vulnerability. Thank you for being sincere.
As I said to you, and as you mention here, yes, I'm not much giving into compromising with my Lizbeth, I might be as stubborn as you with that (a real mule head). And yes it's a lot of chance to stumble on the right partner. I might consider myself as extremely lucky with that. So there ARE compromising people, that DON'T judge on kinks and preferences.
I simply ask you not to give up, nobody is purposely ignoring you (if someone does, who cares...) and unfortunately for you, patience is key word, sorry.
I don't Discord, I'm too old for that, it's way too fast paced for me, so I can't tell about my experience there (it's somewhere between void and zero). I only know that I feel very comfortable here on RPR, well yes, of course not everybody likes me, I'm conscious of that. So, maybe, if you have the necessary patience, there will be someone that likes your RP proposition and will write with you.
Wish you strength
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