Hello. I’m 31-years-old with diagnoses of Autism Spectrum Disorder (Level 1), Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, and Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. I now identify as an aroace due to the trauma I have experienced through twelve years of roleplaying online. I tend to fangirl over certain middle-aged actresses and classic TV shows from time to time. I also tend to make impulsive decisions. I am currently on a journey to give myself a better life after my main caregiver (my mother) died unexpectedly in 2024 after an almost 18-year battle with pulmonary arterial hypertension. At the time, I had been working at Circle K for two years. I had no choice but to leave the job due to a very toxic work environment and bullying there.
My stepfather and younger sister basically forced me to go live with my grandmother in her one-bedroom apartment. My stepfather has claimed to his side of the family that he did not kick me out. Ever since I began living with my grandmother, I have been treated like the black sheep by my stepfather’s side of the family and I have made the choice to protect my peace by not following/friending them on social media, not attending their family functions, etc. The only time my stepfather or sister will speak to me is when they want to come collect the monthly bill that I owe them for my cell phone, which is on their cell phone plan. As much as I do not want to speak to them because of how much they hurt me, my grandmother still forces me to speak to them when she wants to know something from them. I’m hoping that I don’t have much money left to pay them for my cell phone so I can start getting my own cell phone plan.
I never leave the apartment unless I go to the grocery store with my grandmother once a month. Otherwise, I sit on the living room couch every single day either watching TV, playing games on my iPad, playing a game on my Nintendo Switch Lite, reading a book, occasionally scrolling through my social media accounts, or roleplaying online. It explains why it seems that I am online 24/7 except I’m not really online 24/7. I do log off to go to sleep. I only see my psychiatrist virtually instead of in person as it is very difficult for me to rely on certain people for transportation. My grandmother no longer drives and she does not have a car.
As you can see, roleplaying online is one of my main escapes as it helps me escape from this difficult real life situation I’m currently in. My grandmother and my maternal uncle have been my caregivers ever since my mother passed away. I’m currently in the process of obtaining a service coordinator, but I’m well aware now that it’s a very long process and there is nothing I can do about it. I can’t complain about the life I was given or the situation I’m in now. I know I’ve been misunderstood by other people my whole entire life and I hope I can take my life back one day after the horrible cyberbullying I went through on RolePlayer.me . RP Repository is the only site where I actually feel safe because I can see that the moderators actually do something about cyberbullying and harassment unlike the <a href="http://RolePlayer.me">RolePlayer.me</a> administrators who would rather sit back and do nothing. The <a href="http://RolePlayer.me">RolePlayer.me</a> administrators claim that they have Christian values. I refuse to roleplay on that site ever again because they should have protected me from those cyberbullies, creeps, or predators I have encountered over the years.
Anyway, you may feel free to ask me anything.
My stepfather and younger sister basically forced me to go live with my grandmother in her one-bedroom apartment. My stepfather has claimed to his side of the family that he did not kick me out. Ever since I began living with my grandmother, I have been treated like the black sheep by my stepfather’s side of the family and I have made the choice to protect my peace by not following/friending them on social media, not attending their family functions, etc. The only time my stepfather or sister will speak to me is when they want to come collect the monthly bill that I owe them for my cell phone, which is on their cell phone plan. As much as I do not want to speak to them because of how much they hurt me, my grandmother still forces me to speak to them when she wants to know something from them. I’m hoping that I don’t have much money left to pay them for my cell phone so I can start getting my own cell phone plan.
I never leave the apartment unless I go to the grocery store with my grandmother once a month. Otherwise, I sit on the living room couch every single day either watching TV, playing games on my iPad, playing a game on my Nintendo Switch Lite, reading a book, occasionally scrolling through my social media accounts, or roleplaying online. It explains why it seems that I am online 24/7 except I’m not really online 24/7. I do log off to go to sleep. I only see my psychiatrist virtually instead of in person as it is very difficult for me to rely on certain people for transportation. My grandmother no longer drives and she does not have a car.
As you can see, roleplaying online is one of my main escapes as it helps me escape from this difficult real life situation I’m currently in. My grandmother and my maternal uncle have been my caregivers ever since my mother passed away. I’m currently in the process of obtaining a service coordinator, but I’m well aware now that it’s a very long process and there is nothing I can do about it. I can’t complain about the life I was given or the situation I’m in now. I know I’ve been misunderstood by other people my whole entire life and I hope I can take my life back one day after the horrible cyberbullying I went through on RolePlayer.me . RP Repository is the only site where I actually feel safe because I can see that the moderators actually do something about cyberbullying and harassment unlike the <a href="http://RolePlayer.me">RolePlayer.me</a> administrators who would rather sit back and do nothing. The <a href="http://RolePlayer.me">RolePlayer.me</a> administrators claim that they have Christian values. I refuse to roleplay on that site ever again because they should have protected me from those cyberbullies, creeps, or predators I have encountered over the years.
Anyway, you may feel free to ask me anything.
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