I felt a little iffy posting about this but after seeing a few others post about their identities I felt safe to discuss my identity as the journey is meaningful to me and something I don't talk about a lot like other fun facts about me. I recently found out, or at least have a huge feeling, that I am bigender! Usually I don't like using labels to describe my gender but bigender is a nice word that describes how I feel without getting super into detail. Sooo I'll list out some things on how I figured out I was bigender/my identity!
✦ It's been a year and some months since I started calling myself bigender, but the clues were always there since I was 12 as I always enjoyed being masculine online!
✦ For years I enjoyed using masculine pronouns/presenting as a guy online. At first I didn't think much of it until I recently started dressing up to be more masculine in public/got a binder so I could make myself more masculine presenting at will.
✦ I identify as both male and female, usually I feel like both at the same time but some months I feel more masculine while others I feel more feminine. If I had to describe what I am on average it's 60% female and 40% male. Usually online though I just let people pick a pronoun to refer to me as since it makes things easy
✦ At first I felt like I was lying to myself because I never experienced dysphoria since I enjoy being a girl, however, whenever I am referred to with masculine pronouns, dress up more masculine, or get called by my masculine name (Sevil or Sev for short) I experience intense euphoria and get very happy!
✦ Sevil is my masculine name, it is a combination of a shortening of my favorite comfort character's name (Seb) and a name I really liked (Emil). Instead of choosing one or the other I just combined them! My feminine name Sable is a name that just seemed very elegant and I like the way it's spelled, I also love how Sevil and Sable look similar to each other. It took me a long time to find names that fit just right, and these two have stuck the longest so far! I love having a more masculine/androgynous name and a female name.
✦ It's been a year and some months since I started calling myself bigender, but the clues were always there since I was 12 as I always enjoyed being masculine online!
✦ For years I enjoyed using masculine pronouns/presenting as a guy online. At first I didn't think much of it until I recently started dressing up to be more masculine in public/got a binder so I could make myself more masculine presenting at will.
✦ I identify as both male and female, usually I feel like both at the same time but some months I feel more masculine while others I feel more feminine. If I had to describe what I am on average it's 60% female and 40% male. Usually online though I just let people pick a pronoun to refer to me as since it makes things easy
✦ At first I felt like I was lying to myself because I never experienced dysphoria since I enjoy being a girl, however, whenever I am referred to with masculine pronouns, dress up more masculine, or get called by my masculine name (Sevil or Sev for short) I experience intense euphoria and get very happy!
✦ Sevil is my masculine name, it is a combination of a shortening of my favorite comfort character's name (Seb) and a name I really liked (Emil). Instead of choosing one or the other I just combined them! My feminine name Sable is a name that just seemed very elegant and I like the way it's spelled, I also love how Sevil and Sable look similar to each other. It took me a long time to find names that fit just right, and these two have stuck the longest so far! I love having a more masculine/androgynous name and a female name.
Wowie... Two genders for the price of one... Did you have a coupon? :>
(Sorry I don't have a serious question haha... Congrats on your journey though!!)
(Sorry I don't have a serious question haha... Congrats on your journey though!!)
May I say: Hooray! You did it!
Don’t you feel something like relief? Something that tells you, on one hand ‘how could I have written this’ and on the other ‘yes it’s online, I said it!’ ?
Don’t you feel something like relief? Something that tells you, on one hand ‘how could I have written this’ and on the other ‘yes it’s online, I said it!’ ?
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