I just want to say that I’m so sick of deleting and remaking my account only because my paranoia gets to me. I feel completely stuck with my depression because nobody is ever on my side and my only escapes are roleplaying, books, and soap operas.
As much as I feel terrible about deleting and remaking my account, I feel angry that people have hurt me and nobody has been there to help me through all the trauma I have suffered both in real life and online. I’m scared to communicate. I’m scared to make new friends. I’m scared to even let people into my life, even if they knew all the cyberbullying I went through and the reasons behind it.
I want to roleplay one character and one character only. I want her story to be similar to mine. I’m so sorry that I keep making these horrible decisions as that is not how I wanted to start the new year. I can’t even live my own life without my grandmother constantly nagging me over how much I sleep, how I want to take a nap during the day just because I don’t feel like doing anything else, how much she thinks my antidepressant is causing me to sleep more than I should, etc. Yet I cannot complain to anyone else because they simply do not care. Not my stepfather, not my sister, not my maternal uncle, nobody. So roleplaying, books, and soap operas are my only escape until my grandmother dies one day.
I’m so sorry for this introduction post. If you want to remove it, I understand. I just want to write what makes me happy without anyone judging me for it!
-Miranda (formerly known as AutisticWriter, miralynfrost, wimzie412, and cindersilent412)
As much as I feel terrible about deleting and remaking my account, I feel angry that people have hurt me and nobody has been there to help me through all the trauma I have suffered both in real life and online. I’m scared to communicate. I’m scared to make new friends. I’m scared to even let people into my life, even if they knew all the cyberbullying I went through and the reasons behind it.
I want to roleplay one character and one character only. I want her story to be similar to mine. I’m so sorry that I keep making these horrible decisions as that is not how I wanted to start the new year. I can’t even live my own life without my grandmother constantly nagging me over how much I sleep, how I want to take a nap during the day just because I don’t feel like doing anything else, how much she thinks my antidepressant is causing me to sleep more than I should, etc. Yet I cannot complain to anyone else because they simply do not care. Not my stepfather, not my sister, not my maternal uncle, nobody. So roleplaying, books, and soap operas are my only escape until my grandmother dies one day.
I’m so sorry for this introduction post. If you want to remove it, I understand. I just want to write what makes me happy without anyone judging me for it!
-Miranda (formerly known as AutisticWriter, miralynfrost, wimzie412, and cindersilent412)
Hi hi! So, I've seen you around the site a couple of times, and I just wanted to say that is seems you've found at least one person on the site that consistently responds to you- Fantax. Not sure that it's helpful, but I've been on this site since 2015 and have never felt judged. RPR has the option for your characters to be anonymous. If someone does say something out of line, RPR's moderators are always just a click away. You can report any message, and you can block those who have been cruel on this site. It's a very open community.
I empathize with your situation. I know how hopelessness and helplessness feels. I also relate to having issues and not even being able to get them rectified due to finances or being told it's all in your head (which mental health kind of is by definition- not making light of it, though.)
Anyways, RPR has been kind enough to gather mental health resources and post them in the Help forum. I've attached the link: here. Please give it a look through. When I felt alone and like no one was on my side or listening, talking to a therapist really helped. Of course, there's all the hassle that comes with finding the right one but getting your foot in the door is step one.
Best of luck on your journey!
I empathize with your situation. I know how hopelessness and helplessness feels. I also relate to having issues and not even being able to get them rectified due to finances or being told it's all in your head (which mental health kind of is by definition- not making light of it, though.)
Anyways, RPR has been kind enough to gather mental health resources and post them in the Help forum. I've attached the link: here. Please give it a look through. When I felt alone and like no one was on my side or listening, talking to a therapist really helped. Of course, there's all the hassle that comes with finding the right one but getting your foot in the door is step one.
Best of luck on your journey!
ilovedogs260 wrote:
Hi hi! So, I've seen you around the site a couple of times, and I just wanted to say that is seems you've found at least one person on the site that consistently responds to you- Fantax. Not sure that it's helpful, but I've been on this site since 2015 and have never felt judged. RPR has the option for your characters to be anonymous. If someone does say something out of line, RPR's moderators are always just a click away. You can report any message, and you can block those who have been cruel on this site. It's a very open community.
I empathize with your situation. I know how hopelessness and helplessness feels. I also relate to having issues and not even being able to get them rectified due to finances or being told it's all in your head (which mental health kind of is by definition- not making light of it, though.)
Anyways, RPR has been kind enough to gather mental health resources and post them in the Help forum. I've attached the link: here. Please give it a look through. When I felt alone and like no one was on my side or listening, talking to a therapist really helped. Of course, there's all the hassle that comes with finding the right one but getting your foot in the door is step one.
Best of luck on your journey!
I empathize with your situation. I know how hopelessness and helplessness feels. I also relate to having issues and not even being able to get them rectified due to finances or being told it's all in your head (which mental health kind of is by definition- not making light of it, though.)
Anyways, RPR has been kind enough to gather mental health resources and post them in the Help forum. I've attached the link: here. Please give it a look through. When I felt alone and like no one was on my side or listening, talking to a therapist really helped. Of course, there's all the hassle that comes with finding the right one but getting your foot in the door is step one.
Best of luck on your journey!
I agree with this. Please take some time to take care of yourself.
Welcome back to RPR 🙂
I hope you find everything you are looking for.
I hope you find everything you are looking for.
Friend,
People here have given you advice, communicated with you, welcomed you WITHOUT judging multiple times and done it with open arms. You ARE receive help to the best of any average persons ability.
I have watched it happen four times now. Several people have genuinely responded to you, read what you had to say and still replied to you.
I say this with all the fullness of my heart - it seems like the person judging you... Is you. And you won't even stick around long enough to make friends to have help here, but this is an escape for a lot of people and I feel like I can speak for more than just me - no one knows how to help you.
And i think given your struggles even if you made friends and felt comfy enough to stay - I don't know that people would be able to help you still.
There's a wonderful page of resources if you're struggling with mental health. And please know this all comes from a place of love - and a place of being the absolutely wild, impulsive, over reactive person that I was once - and still can be.
Mental Health Resources
People here have given you advice, communicated with you, welcomed you WITHOUT judging multiple times and done it with open arms. You ARE receive help to the best of any average persons ability.
I have watched it happen four times now. Several people have genuinely responded to you, read what you had to say and still replied to you.
I say this with all the fullness of my heart - it seems like the person judging you... Is you. And you won't even stick around long enough to make friends to have help here, but this is an escape for a lot of people and I feel like I can speak for more than just me - no one knows how to help you.
And i think given your struggles even if you made friends and felt comfy enough to stay - I don't know that people would be able to help you still.
There's a wonderful page of resources if you're struggling with mental health. And please know this all comes from a place of love - and a place of being the absolutely wild, impulsive, over reactive person that I was once - and still can be.
Mental Health Resources
Hey, welcome back and I hope you stick around for good this time, the community is welcoming and you will find people here who will treat you as you deserve, you just need to give us a chance... As scary as that is.
I also suggest you take some time to take care of yourself too, you clearly have some unresolved issues and trauma that is forcing you to delete and remake accounts all the time. I also would advise against that, some moderation teams on other sites might not like that and would likely IP ban you and flag you as some kind of problem they dont want any more, so please be careful!
But this time stick around! Please?
I also suggest you take some time to take care of yourself too, you clearly have some unresolved issues and trauma that is forcing you to delete and remake accounts all the time. I also would advise against that, some moderation teams on other sites might not like that and would likely IP ban you and flag you as some kind of problem they dont want any more, so please be careful!
But this time stick around! Please?
RustyRaddish wrote:
Hey, welcome back and I hope you stick around for good this time, the community is welcoming and you will find people here who will treat you as you deserve, you just need to give us a chance... As scary as that is.
I also suggest you take some time to take care of yourself too, you clearly have some unresolved issues and trauma that is forcing you to delete and remake accounts all the time. I also would advise against that, some moderation teams on other sites might not like that and would likely IP ban you and flag you as some kind of problem they dont want any more, so please be careful!
But this time stick around! Please?
I also suggest you take some time to take care of yourself too, you clearly have some unresolved issues and trauma that is forcing you to delete and remake accounts all the time. I also would advise against that, some moderation teams on other sites might not like that and would likely IP ban you and flag you as some kind of problem they dont want any more, so please be careful!
But this time stick around! Please?
Okay, I’ll stick around.
Welcome back x4.
Hi honey 😊
Still welcome back to RPR!!
Ilovedogs and Four said it already, I will not add something or change my point of view. Despite your multiple deletions I will not change my mind, I feel someone terribly broken behind Molly. Let Lizbeth get close to her 😉.
I think I told you, my son is Asperger autistic, so impulsive, same ‘unthought’ reactions. We ‘neurotypical’ can’t understand, only live with it. We can’t change him, nor you. And if it takes two more new profiles, it will be that.
(Sorry moderation team 😁).
The only thing I do not agree with ilovedogs and Four, I know that you can’t take a time for yourself (impossible, knowing where that leads). You have that one thing you have to do, just do it😉.
Enjoy Molly
Lizbeth
Still welcome back to RPR!!
Ilovedogs and Four said it already, I will not add something or change my point of view. Despite your multiple deletions I will not change my mind, I feel someone terribly broken behind Molly. Let Lizbeth get close to her 😉.
I think I told you, my son is Asperger autistic, so impulsive, same ‘unthought’ reactions. We ‘neurotypical’ can’t understand, only live with it. We can’t change him, nor you. And if it takes two more new profiles, it will be that.
(Sorry moderation team 😁).
The only thing I do not agree with ilovedogs and Four, I know that you can’t take a time for yourself (impossible, knowing where that leads). You have that one thing you have to do, just do it😉.
Enjoy Molly
Lizbeth
Welcome back to RPR!
Hope this time you find good writing partners.
Hope this time you find good writing partners.
Welcome back to RPR ! 
I hope you find awesome adventures You are always welcome, no matter how many times you leave and come back!
I hope you find awesome adventures You are always welcome, no matter how many times you leave and come back!
Welcome back... Good luck on keeping one account !!!
Welcome back to RPR!
Four, ilovedogs, and Fantax have all said some really great things I think you need to hear! I know you reached out to me once, then deleted your profile. Just know that I am not here to judge you, and neither is anyone else!
We all have our own struggles. I was in a bad mental place this past year, but with the right people, proper care, and learning more about myself, I’ve bounced back better than before!
Don’t be afraid to reach out if you need a listening ear. You should never have to deal with your own issues alone!
Four, ilovedogs, and Fantax have all said some really great things I think you need to hear! I know you reached out to me once, then deleted your profile. Just know that I am not here to judge you, and neither is anyone else!
We all have our own struggles. I was in a bad mental place this past year, but with the right people, proper care, and learning more about myself, I’ve bounced back better than before!
Don’t be afraid to reach out if you need a listening ear. You should never have to deal with your own issues alone!
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