This is largely for people who play Furcadia, and specifically those who RP primarily in FurN. This has also been a long time coming despite most people already being aware due to speculation, or rumor, or just people who wanted to share the info for social dominance. Posting here because I've been involved in a lot of communities and managing multiple threads isn't something I have time for, so I'd like to apologize to anyone here for whom this is irrelevant.
Q. Why did you do it?
Q. Why didn't you tell ME? I thought WE were friends.
Q. Why did you leave?
Q. Why'd you come back?
Q. Why reveal this NOW?
Q. Are you really a firefighter?
Q. Why a male?/Why Brandon?
Q. You seem super aloof now. Where's the fun?
Q. Why was Brandon married?
Q. Okay so, who are you REALLY?
Q. I'm really hurt by this because __________.
A. I recommend speaking to me privately -- possibly in addition to whatever venting you need. I'm all for a blanket reveal but every interaction I've shared with every individual has been unique, so understanding both perspectives would be for the better. Plus, I would find a blanket apology in this circumstance -- if necessary -- somewhat ill bred.
Q. Since you're not around, what about RPing?
A. I'm so down for RPR and Skype RP. And now that this is out there: Yes, I will totally RP with you on Bolsh or one of his AU iterations. I love him dearly and never get to write the big lug enough.
Forewarning that I'm slow. I legit crank out a long-ish post once a day or every other day. Having hours to sit at the PC is rare for me.
Q. May I still call you Brandon?
A. Absolutely! I will still respond to Brandon and Bran_____ monikers and of course to Vic, Beaker, Bishop, etc
Q. I feel embarrassed/foolish and I'm really bitter about this and I feel like I can't trust you.
A. I apologize. You don't need to feel that way but I understand the reasoning. Do what you need to do.
Scream, yell, ignore me, write a nasty letter. It's up to you, honestly. It would be silly to expect anyone to be stoked about what's happened here.
Surprise! I'm Brandon.
I'm going to lay out the how, why, and where from here in a Q&A style with short answers linked to long ones for the morbidly curious (who, I would say, rightfully deserve an explanation.)
I'm going to lay out the how, why, and where from here in a Q&A style with short answers linked to long ones for the morbidly curious (who, I would say, rightfully deserve an explanation.)
Q. Why did you do it?
A. Many reasons, but it started with a stalker who found my social media using an email I registered to a dream's forums with back when I was like... 12. He was in mad love with me and it was a very negative experience.
It kept going as I got older and really wanted to distance myself from certain types of folks online, even on Furcadia. Lots of things perpetuated it from a wish for personal privacy, to convenience, and even the disgustingly selfish disinterest I had in mucking up casual online friendships and fun with a reveal. The first person to know the truth was Galahad, who helped me hide out and was a total bro. Shortly after that it was Lobsel Vith and for years I flew under the radar until something silly happened.
In about 2011 Sibs decided that Brandon knows way too much about STEM and specifically mathematics for a firefighter. We chatted and I cracked. Shortly after that I escaped from an abusive relationship and revealed to Cara and Jess in order to have private, removed support for my recovery. To date they're the most lovely and reliable friends I have. The experiences were increasingly positive, so from there I began trickling information to people I found dear or who I felt should know due to association.
It kept going as I got older and really wanted to distance myself from certain types of folks online, even on Furcadia. Lots of things perpetuated it from a wish for personal privacy, to convenience, and even the disgustingly selfish disinterest I had in mucking up casual online friendships and fun with a reveal. The first person to know the truth was Galahad, who helped me hide out and was a total bro. Shortly after that it was Lobsel Vith and for years I flew under the radar until something silly happened.
In about 2011 Sibs decided that Brandon knows way too much about STEM and specifically mathematics for a firefighter. We chatted and I cracked. Shortly after that I escaped from an abusive relationship and revealed to Cara and Jess in order to have private, removed support for my recovery. To date they're the most lovely and reliable friends I have. The experiences were increasingly positive, so from there I began trickling information to people I found dear or who I felt should know due to association.
Q. Why didn't you tell ME? I thought WE were friends.
A. In all honesty, and this is difficult to express to some people with gentle hearts: sometimes, people on Furcadia creep me out.
It's happened to me and it's happened to others. The oddball, "Why didn't you tell me?? I'm so hurt I thought we were friends? :'(" from someone that's been in direct contact with myself or another maybe a handful of times. This is either done to assume the role of victim, or, more often people assume proximity = familiarity which frankly, squicks me out a bit and further impresses why an alter ego might even be NECESSARY.
If you fall into the latter category: It's not that you're not a great or fun person. It's just that our connection is a lot more shallow than you maybe assumed. That's okay, but please take time to understand that for some people, there's more to a deep, personal connection than a few jokes and some character interaction. Should you wish, I would be HONORED to get to know you better and find out if we can be great friends in time.
A handful of people are exception to this. There's two or so people I wanted to tell and get closure with if they rejected me, or keep close if they didn't but I never had the opportunity. And weirdly, one person I only got close to AFTER I changed over.
It's happened to me and it's happened to others. The oddball, "Why didn't you tell me?? I'm so hurt I thought we were friends? :'(" from someone that's been in direct contact with myself or another maybe a handful of times. This is either done to assume the role of victim, or, more often people assume proximity = familiarity which frankly, squicks me out a bit and further impresses why an alter ego might even be NECESSARY.
If you fall into the latter category: It's not that you're not a great or fun person. It's just that our connection is a lot more shallow than you maybe assumed. That's okay, but please take time to understand that for some people, there's more to a deep, personal connection than a few jokes and some character interaction. Should you wish, I would be HONORED to get to know you better and find out if we can be great friends in time.
A handful of people are exception to this. There's two or so people I wanted to tell and get closure with if they rejected me, or keep close if they didn't but I never had the opportunity. And weirdly, one person I only got close to AFTER I changed over.
Q. Why did you leave?
A. A number of things. Mostly one hoopla of a situation that opened my eyes to just how toxic the environment was back when I left.
For a long time Furc was just a place for me to exercise creatively and joke around. Toxicity of the culture was something I was well aware of and experienced in but I usually managed to avoid bad apples and quell situations that did arise in addition to being more or less untouchable. As time went on and I got more burnt out on uni work, it became my mainstay for social contact. I had no time for real connections outside of the internet and I was too tired to even waste myself at the pub. Furc became a great stand-in for a bit, and unfortunately, I let myself get too involved.
For the most part I was always very nonchalant about furc, and the people therein didn't bother me nor did their external interactions. Unfortunately as it became the only environment I could rely on for social sustenance, I started to actually care about the quality of environment I was in. And let me tell you, at the time, it was not good. The heavily censored type of place I found myself in combined with the way authorities were promoting responsibility avoidance in other adults was pretty disappointing.
I tried a lot to get people to break off into more functional sub-groups, encourage better leadership, encourage better understanding, and... wound up in the middle of a hoopla I had neither the time nor energy for, taking major brunt for things I often had no involvement in, and just happened to be the nearest target. I often felt like everything I did was bad/wrong because it was grossly misinterpreted and at times I got extremely bitter because the misinterpretations often felt INTENTIONAL. Things got to a point that I was putting people on ignore for THEIR sake because I felt that they could not rationally react to anything I said or did. It sucked, but I realized I shouldn't have spoken up because honestly, at the time, no one involved wanted things to be better (yet). Or they did, but they weren't willing to compromise and use empathy to get there at that point. Even after the major incident, I tried to communicate more with people but was rebuffed with constant passive aggressive excuses and even flat out dishonesty.
It opened my eyes to what a hellishly unhealthy world I was actually socializing in at the time. It hurt to think that because I had a LOT of fun with most of the people on Furc and I'd thought very highly of everyone I'd met up until things went South. Before such an incident, I'd never really been in any of the drama furcadia had been infamous for. I was pretty darn privileged and I mucked it up by trying too hard and letting my rose-colored glasses and belief in intrinsic human "goodness" (e.g. desire to do the right thing) carry me away when the timing was just not right.
So, disappointed and faced with my upcoming graduation I set myself a date in February to get the heck out of dodge and began selling off my junk, and slowly minimizing my time spent in-game until my only log-ons were by direct invitation from other players. Eventually, I straight up disappeared.
For a long time Furc was just a place for me to exercise creatively and joke around. Toxicity of the culture was something I was well aware of and experienced in but I usually managed to avoid bad apples and quell situations that did arise in addition to being more or less untouchable. As time went on and I got more burnt out on uni work, it became my mainstay for social contact. I had no time for real connections outside of the internet and I was too tired to even waste myself at the pub. Furc became a great stand-in for a bit, and unfortunately, I let myself get too involved.
For the most part I was always very nonchalant about furc, and the people therein didn't bother me nor did their external interactions. Unfortunately as it became the only environment I could rely on for social sustenance, I started to actually care about the quality of environment I was in. And let me tell you, at the time, it was not good. The heavily censored type of place I found myself in combined with the way authorities were promoting responsibility avoidance in other adults was pretty disappointing.
I tried a lot to get people to break off into more functional sub-groups, encourage better leadership, encourage better understanding, and... wound up in the middle of a hoopla I had neither the time nor energy for, taking major brunt for things I often had no involvement in, and just happened to be the nearest target. I often felt like everything I did was bad/wrong because it was grossly misinterpreted and at times I got extremely bitter because the misinterpretations often felt INTENTIONAL. Things got to a point that I was putting people on ignore for THEIR sake because I felt that they could not rationally react to anything I said or did. It sucked, but I realized I shouldn't have spoken up because honestly, at the time, no one involved wanted things to be better (yet). Or they did, but they weren't willing to compromise and use empathy to get there at that point. Even after the major incident, I tried to communicate more with people but was rebuffed with constant passive aggressive excuses and even flat out dishonesty.
It opened my eyes to what a hellishly unhealthy world I was actually socializing in at the time. It hurt to think that because I had a LOT of fun with most of the people on Furc and I'd thought very highly of everyone I'd met up until things went South. Before such an incident, I'd never really been in any of the drama furcadia had been infamous for. I was pretty darn privileged and I mucked it up by trying too hard and letting my rose-colored glasses and belief in intrinsic human "goodness" (e.g. desire to do the right thing) carry me away when the timing was just not right.
So, disappointed and faced with my upcoming graduation I set myself a date in February to get the heck out of dodge and began selling off my junk, and slowly minimizing my time spent in-game until my only log-ons were by direct invitation from other players. Eventually, I straight up disappeared.
Q. Why'd you come back?
A. The environment improved.
Over time the changes that needed to be made were made and I observed -- from afar -- that people had largely grown out of habits and situations that had prompted the negative hoopla originally. At the time I was not yet ready to return but I missed RP and missed a lot of my friends and acquaintances I hadn't revealed myself to.
Later on I was well employed and I'd regained the balance of real-life socialization and activity that makes me, me. I felt healthier myself and like I wouldn't be stupid enough to invest emotionally in unhealthy individuals and I could combat controlling or histrionic personalities effectively. I was, however, super hesitant until some awesome friends started teasing me with characters and plots. For a while, many of you remember, I helped finance and support San Angeles and it was really fun until I stopped having time again. Eventually, Colors proposed the idea of me coming back under another pseudonym but I decided rather than that, to just pop back around as myself since I was planning on financing SA and people would probably see my real name on PayPal.
That said, I wouldn't say I'm actually back, at all. My presence is occasional at best because with my life back at full speed, I just don't have a lot of time for stuff like Furc or even art. It sucks, y'all are fantastic and I appreciate you for you, but it is what it is.
Over time the changes that needed to be made were made and I observed -- from afar -- that people had largely grown out of habits and situations that had prompted the negative hoopla originally. At the time I was not yet ready to return but I missed RP and missed a lot of my friends and acquaintances I hadn't revealed myself to.
Later on I was well employed and I'd regained the balance of real-life socialization and activity that makes me, me. I felt healthier myself and like I wouldn't be stupid enough to invest emotionally in unhealthy individuals and I could combat controlling or histrionic personalities effectively. I was, however, super hesitant until some awesome friends started teasing me with characters and plots. For a while, many of you remember, I helped finance and support San Angeles and it was really fun until I stopped having time again. Eventually, Colors proposed the idea of me coming back under another pseudonym but I decided rather than that, to just pop back around as myself since I was planning on financing SA and people would probably see my real name on PayPal.
That said, I wouldn't say I'm actually back, at all. My presence is occasional at best because with my life back at full speed, I just don't have a lot of time for stuff like Furc or even art. It sucks, y'all are fantastic and I appreciate you for you, but it is what it is.
Q. Why reveal this NOW?
A. I honestly didn't care to reveal it at all since I'd 'uninvested my stock' in Furcadia after the hoopla. This feels like more of a formality. Most people in the ever-churning wheel of the Furcadia rumor mill know already and have made their judgments. It didn't seem fair to keep everyone else who may not yet be in the loop, out of it. Furthermore, some people do this weird thing where they reveal the personal information of others for attention and validation, and it's an awful, reprehensible habit that I don't want to enable. A blanket reveal seemed the best way to put a cork on that
Plus, the people who knew early on were the people I knew well enough at the time to want close. They've been total bros about it and it's really just compounded the reason I hang out with them in the first place; They're darn good people and I lucked out in picking the best possible friends to surround myself with. A lot of other people ended up a bystander because we weren't close enough yet (sorry) or they wanted very badly to be angry and victimized.
In a way I've made some assumptions (I know, bad) about who might fall where and I'm honestly super interested to see peoples' reactions. Who knows who I'll get closer to or further away from, it's a gamble but heck if it's not the right thing to do.
EDIT: Finally, there's been some talk about "increased media presence" in my company. Y I K E S. Figured I'd spill the beans now in case anyone happened to be a huge enough nerd to follow certain outlets and pick up on my ~brandonesque~ habits and language.
Plus, the people who knew early on were the people I knew well enough at the time to want close. They've been total bros about it and it's really just compounded the reason I hang out with them in the first place; They're darn good people and I lucked out in picking the best possible friends to surround myself with. A lot of other people ended up a bystander because we weren't close enough yet (sorry) or they wanted very badly to be angry and victimized.
In a way I've made some assumptions (I know, bad) about who might fall where and I'm honestly super interested to see peoples' reactions. Who knows who I'll get closer to or further away from, it's a gamble but heck if it's not the right thing to do.
EDIT: Finally, there's been some talk about "increased media presence" in my company. Y I K E S. Figured I'd spill the beans now in case anyone happened to be a huge enough nerd to follow certain outlets and pick up on my ~brandonesque~ habits and language.
Q. Are you really a firefighter?
A. Actually, Yes!
I was a CADET and volunteer for six years specializing in structure fires and HAZMAT. I'm still a social member of my station, but have to retake the Firefighter I and II academies to regain active status. I've been serving my community in other ways until that's possible. Plus, in the meantime I'm able to help out at the station fundraisers and keep the business end of things square.
EDIT: Yes, "I'm pooping!" legit happened and I legit got a stranger's fecal matter smeared on my turnouts. What's worse was it was not the last time.
I was a CADET and volunteer for six years specializing in structure fires and HAZMAT. I'm still a social member of my station, but have to retake the Firefighter I and II academies to regain active status. I've been serving my community in other ways until that's possible. Plus, in the meantime I'm able to help out at the station fundraisers and keep the business end of things square.
EDIT: Yes, "I'm pooping!" legit happened and I legit got a stranger's fecal matter smeared on my turnouts. What's worse was it was not the last time.
Q. Why a male?/Why Brandon?
A. My stalker at the time was a straight male so this was a natural choice among other reasons.
First of all, no one's going to stalk a 6'+ dude with biceps. Secondly, everyone assumed I was male back in the day when I hung out in equine RP. My interests and to a greater extent my personality tends to come across as very masculine. Constantly correcting people got old so, "he" it was.
Additionally, I kept going with it because when I was a teen, ladies on furc could get very aggressive with one another. Rather than make the effort to poise myself as 'not taking that nonsense' I just continued to slide by scathe free as a male.
Everything in Brandon's life and identity parallels mine with some mussed details to throw people off track. e.g. the name Brandon is the name of the person who got me started with fire department cadets when I was 14 and in the same breath, probably saved my young life. That's a long, long story.
First of all, no one's going to stalk a 6'+ dude with biceps. Secondly, everyone assumed I was male back in the day when I hung out in equine RP. My interests and to a greater extent my personality tends to come across as very masculine. Constantly correcting people got old so, "he" it was.
Additionally, I kept going with it because when I was a teen, ladies on furc could get very aggressive with one another. Rather than make the effort to poise myself as 'not taking that nonsense' I just continued to slide by scathe free as a male.
Everything in Brandon's life and identity parallels mine with some mussed details to throw people off track. e.g. the name Brandon is the name of the person who got me started with fire department cadets when I was 14 and in the same breath, probably saved my young life. That's a long, long story.
Q. You seem super aloof now. Where's the fun?
A. I AM SO TIRED. LIKE SO VERY VERY TIRED PLEASE END MEEEEE.
I've been moved/promoted/reassigned to major projects like four times in two years because my company's undergoing a lot of adjustments. It's killing me. Presently I'm holding a critical EH&S position in our management team and heading a development project so I should be safe.
I'm definitely still game to play around, so just hit me up.
I've been moved/promoted/reassigned to major projects like four times in two years because my company's undergoing a lot of adjustments. It's killing me. Presently I'm holding a critical EH&S position in our management team and heading a development project so I should be safe.
I'm definitely still game to play around, so just hit me up.
Q. Why was Brandon married?
A. To prevent people from catching feelings for him/me, and to prevent those that had caught feelings from trying to press boundaries.
I'm largely Aro/Ace/(Demi??)/who-even-knows, and even if I DID want to date someone on Furc, it would be cruel to lure them in with a male persona and pull a bait and switch. Despite general refusals in the past, a lot of young ladies pressed for very personal, intimate connections. As a result, I got myself a hot, good natured wife so that the boundary would be respected.
Baby was because I was hard leaving in February when I planned on wrapping things up in uni. Plus, February is when most of my falconry sponsor's peregrines and gyrfalcons hatched and I actually DID have to play mommy to about 20 of these predatory nuggets.
I'm largely Aro/Ace/(Demi??)/who-even-knows, and even if I DID want to date someone on Furc, it would be cruel to lure them in with a male persona and pull a bait and switch. Despite general refusals in the past, a lot of young ladies pressed for very personal, intimate connections. As a result, I got myself a hot, good natured wife so that the boundary would be respected.
Baby was because I was hard leaving in February when I planned on wrapping things up in uni. Plus, February is when most of my falconry sponsor's peregrines and gyrfalcons hatched and I actually DID have to play mommy to about 20 of these predatory nuggets.
Q. Okay so, who are you REALLY?
A. Jesus Christ Superstar. Kidding. Same cheeky prankster personality just packed into a concentrated 5'0" 100 lb human being. No preferred pronouns so that's up to you. Most people go with 'she.' My first name is Victoria, I go by Vic or Beaker in some cases. The latter is a nickname from 20-30 club because I'm an overpaid STEM professional and drunks aren't creative.
My hobbies are pretty much all the same. Hunting (recurve bow, rifle, and falconry), fishing (exclusively catch & release), kayaking, scuba (not NEARLY enough of this in my life!), dressage, showjumping, skiing, bottle rockets, backpacking, gaming, fencing (saber and rapier), flying (I die upon autorotation so... fixed wing only), and lately robotics and drones. I'm working on an ASA sailing certification but it's slow going. Into lifting, not very into cardio. I'm a paper-nerd that collects stationary like Crane & Co and Terrapin for pen paling and thank you cards; I'm even known to have a lot of custom stationary. Needless to say, I'm pretty darn outdoorsy. I grew up in the Tahoe basin and mountain country life is definitely my niche. Despite that big ol' list of shenanigans, I can't ride a bike. I'm not even kidding you I simply never learned. It's on the bucket list followed closely by getting a streetbike.
I'm big into skincare and operate a teeny tiny cosmetics company in my spare time. I work with a handful of estheticians and do all of my own R&D. Frankly, I just love to help people gain confidence about their insides and outsides. People and critters alike need this kind of help so I spend a bit of time here and there working with a local Korean Jindo dog rescue. A lot of these poor pups are independent to begin with, so rebuilding broken trust in humans is a tough but rewarding process. There's a senior pup there I want to adopt when we're both ready for it.
However, my career is totally different. When I 'invented' Brandon my heart was set on professional firefighting but thanks to loads of peer pressure I ended up chasing innumerable academic waypoints in STEM. After several years of being cattleprodded through academia, I emerged an engineer. The majority of my studies revolved around physical sciences (specifically physical chemistry and engineering physics) and my specialization, I guess, is in the atomic structure and functions of heavy metals, particularly actinides. During my uni years I had the pleasure of doing undergrad research with an Ag Z-pinch laser and later tri-chromium anodizing and plating. That pretty much solidified my future and I was able to spend even more time with the Z-pinch later on. For a couple months during this wild ride I tried to major in Interior Decorating only to flip back to PhysChem and Engineering.
I presently work in the energy industry with hopes of eventually becoming part of a development team for Generation IV nuclear reactors. Right now though the goal is to pay off my home loan and get back to basics with my personal life.
I'm a bilingual German-American, born and raised in the US and very much thankful just to have a good home, especially 20 minutes from the most beautiful lake in the nation. Political strife be damned. The soil's fertile and the people are never boring.
No pets, sadly. Just a horse I'm leasing from a friend for lessons and shows, but we've learned a lot together and I'm looking forward to learning even more with him. Luckily I'm absolutely surrounded by animal-loving friends including my BFF, Kristen, who owns the equestrian center I ride at. Everyone brings their dogs, there's barn cats, and obviously ponies. It's heaven, man. It's so easy to manipulate me with cute animals it's honestly a crime.
TL;DR: I take very little seriously. I'm the cheeky bugger who put inflatable aliens in a swanky Fortune 500 conference room. I've been through so much in such a short life that since about 2012, all I've cared about is having a good ride to the finish line. I'm not so conceited to think that my journey is one which needs to be respected from all angles or even validated by others. I just really want to knock off and share the joy of knocking off with pals. If it's not your deal that's chill. You can put me on ignore or avoid me, but for goodness sake do what you need to let it go.
That aside, if any of the above sounds relatable to you, let's bro out.
P.S. I really did once forget that Shaun was gay and it's still funny to both of us.
Gaze upon my Tinder profile pic:
Haha okay here's a better reference point for y'all.
My hobbies are pretty much all the same. Hunting (recurve bow, rifle, and falconry), fishing (exclusively catch & release), kayaking, scuba (not NEARLY enough of this in my life!), dressage, showjumping, skiing, bottle rockets, backpacking, gaming, fencing (saber and rapier), flying (I die upon autorotation so... fixed wing only), and lately robotics and drones. I'm working on an ASA sailing certification but it's slow going. Into lifting, not very into cardio. I'm a paper-nerd that collects stationary like Crane & Co and Terrapin for pen paling and thank you cards; I'm even known to have a lot of custom stationary. Needless to say, I'm pretty darn outdoorsy. I grew up in the Tahoe basin and mountain country life is definitely my niche. Despite that big ol' list of shenanigans, I can't ride a bike. I'm not even kidding you I simply never learned. It's on the bucket list followed closely by getting a streetbike.
I'm big into skincare and operate a teeny tiny cosmetics company in my spare time. I work with a handful of estheticians and do all of my own R&D. Frankly, I just love to help people gain confidence about their insides and outsides. People and critters alike need this kind of help so I spend a bit of time here and there working with a local Korean Jindo dog rescue. A lot of these poor pups are independent to begin with, so rebuilding broken trust in humans is a tough but rewarding process. There's a senior pup there I want to adopt when we're both ready for it.
However, my career is totally different. When I 'invented' Brandon my heart was set on professional firefighting but thanks to loads of peer pressure I ended up chasing innumerable academic waypoints in STEM. After several years of being cattleprodded through academia, I emerged an engineer. The majority of my studies revolved around physical sciences (specifically physical chemistry and engineering physics) and my specialization, I guess, is in the atomic structure and functions of heavy metals, particularly actinides. During my uni years I had the pleasure of doing undergrad research with an Ag Z-pinch laser and later tri-chromium anodizing and plating. That pretty much solidified my future and I was able to spend even more time with the Z-pinch later on. For a couple months during this wild ride I tried to major in Interior Decorating only to flip back to PhysChem and Engineering.
I presently work in the energy industry with hopes of eventually becoming part of a development team for Generation IV nuclear reactors. Right now though the goal is to pay off my home loan and get back to basics with my personal life.
I'm a bilingual German-American, born and raised in the US and very much thankful just to have a good home, especially 20 minutes from the most beautiful lake in the nation. Political strife be damned. The soil's fertile and the people are never boring.
No pets, sadly. Just a horse I'm leasing from a friend for lessons and shows, but we've learned a lot together and I'm looking forward to learning even more with him. Luckily I'm absolutely surrounded by animal-loving friends including my BFF, Kristen, who owns the equestrian center I ride at. Everyone brings their dogs, there's barn cats, and obviously ponies. It's heaven, man. It's so easy to manipulate me with cute animals it's honestly a crime.
TL;DR: I take very little seriously. I'm the cheeky bugger who put inflatable aliens in a swanky Fortune 500 conference room. I've been through so much in such a short life that since about 2012, all I've cared about is having a good ride to the finish line. I'm not so conceited to think that my journey is one which needs to be respected from all angles or even validated by others. I just really want to knock off and share the joy of knocking off with pals. If it's not your deal that's chill. You can put me on ignore or avoid me, but for goodness sake do what you need to let it go.
That aside, if any of the above sounds relatable to you, let's bro out.
P.S. I really did once forget that Shaun was gay and it's still funny to both of us.
Gaze upon my Tinder profile pic:
Haha okay here's a better reference point for y'all.
Q. I'm really hurt by this because __________.
A. I recommend speaking to me privately -- possibly in addition to whatever venting you need. I'm all for a blanket reveal but every interaction I've shared with every individual has been unique, so understanding both perspectives would be for the better. Plus, I would find a blanket apology in this circumstance -- if necessary -- somewhat ill bred.
EDITS/ADDITIONAL Qs
Q. Since you're not around, what about RPing?
A. I'm so down for RPR and Skype RP. And now that this is out there: Yes, I will totally RP with you on Bolsh or one of his AU iterations. I love him dearly and never get to write the big lug enough.
Forewarning that I'm slow. I legit crank out a long-ish post once a day or every other day. Having hours to sit at the PC is rare for me.
Q. May I still call you Brandon?
A. Absolutely! I will still respond to Brandon and Bran_____ monikers and of course to Vic, Beaker, Bishop, etc
Q. I feel embarrassed/foolish and I'm really bitter about this and I feel like I can't trust you.
A. I apologize. You don't need to feel that way but I understand the reasoning. Do what you need to do.
Scream, yell, ignore me, write a nasty letter. It's up to you, honestly. It would be silly to expect anyone to be stoked about what's happened here.
I am very proud of you beb for coming out about this 
It takes a lot of guts n moxy
It takes a lot of guts n moxy
'No one is going to stalk a 6'+ guy with biceps'...
... unless their name is Cara.
HAHAAAAH, *softly cry and drink some water*
OK enough of the joking though.
I'm proud of you This took a lot of guts for you to come out about.
... unless their name is Cara.
HAHAAAAH, *softly cry and drink some water*
OK enough of the joking though.
I'm proud of you
This took a lot of guts for you to come out about.
Just wanted to squeeze in here and say that this, if it were me that had to do it, would have been a hard thing to do and I'm really glad that you did it. While I can partially understand the mindset of folks who might feel hurt for whatever reason, they need to understand that you had your reasons for doing it (which you have clearly explained), and you are Brandon anyway - they're not losing anybody, you're right here, still being awesome. He served his purpose, but now you get to just be you which I think is rad and I am glad for it because I like you.
PS: Would 100% swipe right on that Tinder pic.
PS: Would 100% swipe right on that Tinder pic.
damn diddly dang it I got catfished!!!!1!
Fo real, knowing you all these years, I'm beaming and I'm so super proud of you for the closure on this.
Fo real, knowing you all these years, I'm beaming and I'm so super proud of you for the closure on this.
Bishop wrote:
I really did once forget that Shaun was gay and it's still funny.
I don't understand how this is even humanly possible. ;;
(but i really do love you, shaun! ... in the most platonic way possible, of course.)
I HAD NO IDEA.
But you're awesome regardless.
But you're awesome regardless.
Good on you, darlin'.
It's nice to meet you, Vic.
It's nice to meet you, Vic.
Oh my goodness!! Thank you, you sweet bees. I really appreciate the support and I'm thankful to have y'all in my life. Now, and back then.
I know, right?? What is wrong with the singles out here. I am a t r e a s u r e.
Hook, line, and stinker 8)
And yeah... genuinely 100% forgot Shaun was gay and clicked on a .gif he sent during a session of questionable gifs in TGT OOC. I was not offended in any way, just didn't remember until right before the gif loaded.
I may have forgotten about his sexual preferences but I did learn he has superb taste in visual media of all variety.
Owelle wrote:
PS: Would 100% swipe right on that Tinder pic.
I know, right?? What is wrong with the singles out here. I am a t r e a s u r e.
Fiebs wrote:
damn diddly dang it I got catfished!!!!1!
Hook, line, and stinker 8)
And yeah... genuinely 100% forgot Shaun was gay and clicked on a .gif he sent during a session of questionable gifs in TGT OOC. I was not offended in any way, just didn't remember until right before the gif loaded.
I may have forgotten about his sexual preferences but I did learn he has superb taste in visual media of all variety.
I can't say I know you, nor can I say I have ever spoken to you.
What I can say is good for you though.
It takes a huge amount of guts and grit to come out and do what you just did and I think in the end you'll be a better person for it, or at least feel a little more free.
I've known many to hide behind the screen and pretend to be someone else, all for different reasons of course, but those that can actually, finally, come out and admit such a thing are always the strongest.
If anyone gives you shit, just think of all of the people here that support you and realize you don't need 'em.
What I can say is good for you though.
It takes a huge amount of guts and grit to come out and do what you just did and I think in the end you'll be a better person for it, or at least feel a little more free.
I've known many to hide behind the screen and pretend to be someone else, all for different reasons of course, but those that can actually, finally, come out and admit such a thing are always the strongest.
If anyone gives you shit, just think of all of the people here that support you and realize you don't need 'em.
All I can say is..
FINALLY.
I am going to miss putting on a show with you for the folks who didn't know. Love you, Beaker and I'm very proud.
FINALLY.
I am going to miss putting on a show with you for the folks who didn't know. Love you, Beaker and I'm very proud.
I'm glad you did this. It makes me happy.
I am proud of you.
Continue to be who you are. Don't ask permission. Don't ask forgiveness. There is power in believing in yourself.
I am proud of you.
Continue to be who you are. Don't ask permission. Don't ask forgiveness. There is power in believing in yourself.
This leaves deep emotional scars that can only be remedied by Tlingit therapy.
I still love you and you will always be my Brandbro.
Still my favorite person ever.
<3
Still my favorite person ever.
<3
If any sort of backlash, harassment, etc, follows you from furc onto RPR, just hit up a mod.
Please do hit up a mod for any kind of harassment that occurs on the RPR! This goes for anyone, not just Brandon/Bishop.
But also, friendly reminder: the RPR has strict rules about one account per person. If anyone out there is dealing with stalking or harassment, please let us know so we can take appropriate action to stop this behavior on-site. Take advantage of the anonymous character function to help make your identities harder to track. But please don't create a second account.
But also, friendly reminder: the RPR has strict rules about one account per person. If anyone out there is dealing with stalking or harassment, please let us know so we can take appropriate action to stop this behavior on-site. Take advantage of the anonymous character function to help make your identities harder to track. But please don't create a second account.
Thanks friends! I really appreciate it and I will always be your cheeky buddy
Additionally, thank you RPR staff for the kindness and support. The individual hasn't had contact with me for several years and is barred by threat of legal action. The situation with the dual-identities was more of a comfort and time thing. I appreciate the offer, though, and would like to offer my sincerest apologies for taking advantage of RPR with two accounts to make this transition.
I was aware of the rule but was too caught up with avoiding strife and had seen other players use multiple accounts to hide their identities since privatizing alts irks suspicion in the Furc community. Personally, hiding characters didn't allow me to BE myself as was the goal and I suppose I just became advantageous. That said, again, sincerest apologies for the selfish behavior.
I doubt anything substantial --that I'd honestly worry about -- will follow me back 'round from Furc. If people are upset or offended it's their prerogative and I accept that they have every right to interpret and feel however they like about the situation.
Additionally, thank you RPR staff for the kindness and support. The individual hasn't had contact with me for several years and is barred by threat of legal action. The situation with the dual-identities was more of a comfort and time thing. I appreciate the offer, though, and would like to offer my sincerest apologies for taking advantage of RPR with two accounts to make this transition.
I was aware of the rule but was too caught up with avoiding strife and had seen other players use multiple accounts to hide their identities since privatizing alts irks suspicion in the Furc community. Personally, hiding characters didn't allow me to BE myself as was the goal and I suppose I just became advantageous. That said, again, sincerest apologies for the selfish behavior.
I doubt anything substantial --that I'd honestly worry about -- will follow me back 'round from Furc. If people are upset or offended it's their prerogative and I accept that they have every right to interpret and feel however they like about the situation.
I'm so relieved for you!
You know regardless of what happens I'll get your back!
*makes various threatening hand gestures that in some foreign countries are probably actually offensive and I'm so sorry*
You know regardless of what happens I'll get your back!
*makes various threatening hand gestures that in some foreign countries are probably actually offensive and I'm so sorry*